Practice, non-attachment, and equanimity


Life is all about training and practice. Training and practice for what, or to become what? To be the best possible version of oneself, in whichever aspects one decides on in this life. Training and practice must be accompanied by discernment, a balanced and clear view of what it is, without a bond or attachment to both the pains and pleasures of life.

Abhyasa vairagyabhyam tan nirodhah
Yoga Sutra of Patanjali 1:12

Abhyasa means practice, vairagya means letting go, non-attachment, nirodhah means mastery, control.

One can gain mastery over oneself by consistent practice and non-attachment.

What does non-attachment mean and why is it so important? Isn’t attachment to something actually propel us, fuel us to do the practice? For example, let’s say it’s the attachment to getting likes or comments drive me to keep writing this blog. Then what happens when I don’t get likes, traffic, or comments? I feel sad. When I get likes, traffic, or comments, I feel happy. This means I’m not mastering myself, but letting outside circumstances affect me.

Besides pain/pleasure, attachment also means not being present – because attachment is always to something that happened in the past, or to something in the future. Non-attachment means presence in the here and now, not worrying about the past and not having expectations about the future.

Pain/pleasure, future/past, are like two polarities, and without mastery of our own self, we oscillate between these two polarities. If we continuously oscillate, keep moving between the two polars, it’s very difficult to achieve stillness, equanimity, shamata.

If there is no stillness, there is no silence.
If there is no silence, there is no insight.
If there is no insight, there is no clarity.
~ Tenzin Priyadarshi

So, without attachment to the result, why would one want move forward and do anything? What drives or fuels one to progress?

There’s an innate drive in everything in nature for creation, maintenance, and recycle (I prefer to call it recycle than destruction). Everything has this cycle. Birth, productive period, and then death. Symbolized by the Trimurti Gods: Brahman, Vishnu, Shiva. So as long as we’re alive, we have this innate drive to be productive, to progress, to grow and move forward, to contribute, to be of use, until such time that we have to move on and go back to where we came from.

Not utilizing this chance, this lifetime, to move forward and progress, is such a waste. Unfortunately most of us forgot about this, distracted by the sensual nature of the material world. Attached to the material things, we chased wealth, fame, power, etc.

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Beyond carrot & stick


I lost my creative drive not only for this blog but also for this art challenge I joined.

I meant to post on my blog at least once a week, preferably every Monday; and I missed the past two weeks. Same thing happened with the art challenge. We’re supposed to create something everyday, and I managed to create something almost everyday, until on the 21st day I didn’t feel like drawing anything, and then the dry spell continued till the end of the challenge.

The first time not doing something I committed to do, I felt a bit guilty, slight remorse. The next time, the guilt is gone. My mind was rationalizing “Look – nothing bad happened when you didn’t do what you intend to do. Relax!”

The lack of consequences to my non-action made my brain thought it was okay to not do something. Taken one step further, it can also be this way: the lack of consequences to my wrong action made my brain thought it was okay to do that particular wrong action.

Because there is no feedback, there is no corrective action. When there’s no corrective action, one can deviate from the path, unaware.

One life hack tips I read somewhere is this – setting up a feedback loop around the action we want to do – by setting an agreement or a bet, of paying someone when you do (or not do) something. Example – I will pay a friend 50$ if I don’t post on my blog at least once a week. This supposedly reduce the possibilities of me not posting, because I would rather spend time writing something and posting, as busy and tired as I am, than losing 50$. This is the stick strategy.

Alternatively, a carrot strategy would be setting up a reward for doing an action. Example – I will reward myself an ice cream if I post on schedule. Because now there’s a reward, I’m supposed to be more inclined to do it. Because I like ice cream and I want that ice cream.

But does it have to be that way? Do we have to bait on our likes & dislikes, clinging & aversion tendencies?

In the Yoga Sutra, Patanjali wrote about clinging (raga) and aversion (dvesha) as two of the five types of coloring (klesha). The other three are ignorance (avidya), ego (asmita), and love of life/fear of death (abhinivesha). And the practices of yoga are attempts to reduce these coloring, so then one can start to see more clearly, reach equanimity, shamata. Then external things will not affect one so much, so the mind becomes more stable.

The carrot and stick strategy is effective. But I think there’s a better alternative strategy that doesn’t feed raga & dvesha. Patanjali wrote about it too, actually it precedes the klesha thread in the Yoga Sutra.

2.1 Tapah svadhyaya ishvara-pranidhana kriya-yogah
2.2 Samadhi bhavana arthah klesha tanu karanarthah cha
2.3 Avidya asmita raga dvesha abhinivesha pancha klesha

Swami Jnaneshvara’s interpretation:

2.1 Yoga in the form of action (kriya yoga) has three parts: 1) training and purifying the senses (tapas), 2) self-study in the contect of teachings (svadhyaya), and 3) devotion and letting go into the creative source from which we emerged (ishvara pranidhana)
2.2 That yoga of action (kriya yoga) is practiced to bring about samadhi and to minimize the colored thought patterns (kleshas)
2.3 There are five kinds of coloring (kleshas): 1) forgetting, or ignorance about the true nature of things (avidya), 2) I-ness, individuality, or egoism (asmita), 3) attachment or addiction to mental impressions or objects (raga), 4) aversion to thought patterns or objects (dvesha), and 5) love of these as being life itself, as well as fear of their loss as being death.

Matthew Remski’s interpretation:

2.1 Yoga applies endurance, learning, and commitment.
2.2 It reduces alienation and cultivates empathy.
2.3 Ignorance, individualism, addiction, disassociation, and the afterlife, these alienate.

Thread 2.1 is the three-pronged strategy: training & endurance, self study & learning, devotion & commitment. Self discipline, knowing why I’m doing it on the first place, and doing it with goodwill for the benefit of all.

The two latter are like a guiding compass and the northern star, and if one have enough discipline to check the course against them from time to time one will know if one deviates and take necessary corrective action. Instead of passively waiting for feedback, one proactively seek feedback by regularly reviewing one’s actions. Ask ourself questions like “What am I doing? Why am I doing it? Who/what am I doing it for?” If we can’t answer these questions with conviction, take a break, pause, look deeper, reconsider.

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Attention, productivity & spirituality


If you don’t pay appropriate attention to what has your attention, it will take more of your attention than it deserves.
~ David Allen

The more common angle in discussing attention is in relation with productivity. And there are plenty of books and articles about managing attention for productivity and performance. David Allen’s Getting Things Done (or widely known as GTD) is a very popular framework on productivity. The central thought behind GTD is that every ‘unfinished business’ is taking up some processing power from our finite processing capacity. And our mind is amazingly smart and yet a bit dumb at the same time, it can solve mysteries of the universe but it doesn’t differentiate the thought “How to stop global warming?” and “Remember to buy milk!”. Both are considered as unfinished business and both are taking up some processing capacity.

An interesting concept from the book is “Mind like water”. Here’s from the first chapter of the book:

In karate, there is an image that’s used to define the position of perfect readiness: “mind like water.” Imagine throwing a pebble into a still pond. How does the water respond? The answer is, totally appropriately to the force and mass of the input; then it returns to calm. It doesn’t overreact or underreact.

The power in a karate punch comes from speed, not muscle; it comes from a focused “pop” at the end of the whip. It’s why petite people can learn to break boards and bricks with their hands: it doesn’t take calluses or brute strength, just the ability to generate a focused thrust with speed. But a tense muscle is a slow one. So the high levels of training in the martial arts teach and demand balance and relaxation as much as anything else. Clearing the mind and being flexible are key.

Anything that causes you to overreact or underreact can control you, and often does. Responding inappropriately to your email, your staff, your projects, your unread magazines, your thoughts about what you need to do, your children, or your boss will lead to less effective results than you’d like. Most people give either more or less attention to things than they deserve, simply because they don’t operate with a “mind like water.”

I’m no expert in productivity. I adapt the GTD system to some extent, and it does put some order in the chaos of my life. I’m walking the path of yoga and spirituality as well, and I find this “mind like water” concept has similarities with yoga, specifically the Yoga Sutra of Patanjali. Here’s Yoga Sutra 1.2 & 1.3 from Swami Jnanesvhara (

Yogash chitta vritti nirodhah.
Tada drashtuh svarupe avasthanam.
Yoga is the mastery of the activities of the mind-field.
Then the seer rests in its true nature.

According to the sutra there are five states of mind: Kshipta (disturbed), Mudha (dull), Vikshipta (distracted), Ekagra (one-pointed), and Nirodhah (mastered, regulated). The first three are undesirable states of mind, and the last two is the doorway to yoga, union. Here’s a definition of Ekagra (from Swami Jnaneshvara again)

The Ekagra mind is one-pointed, focused, concentrated (Yoga Sutra 1.32). When the mind has attained the ability to be one-pointed, the real practice of Yoga meditation begins. It means that one can focus on tasks at hand in daily life, practicing karma yoga, the yoga of action, by being mindful of the mental process and consciously serving others. When the mind is one-pointed, other internal and external activities are simply not a distraction.

The person with a one-pointed mind just carries on with the matters at hand, undisturbed, unaffected, and uninvolved with those other stimuli. It is important to note that this is meant in a positive way, not the negative way of not attending to other people or other internal priorities. The one-pointed mind is fully present in the moment and able to attend to people, thoughts, and emotions at will.

The one-pointed mind is able to do the practices of concentration and meditation, leading one onward towards samadhi. This ability to focus attention is a primary skill that the student wants to develop for meditation and samadhi.

Ekagra is the ability to manage attention, and thus be fully present in the moment, and thus able to react or attend any outside stimuli appropriately, like water, giving response appropriately to the input. No more, no less, and then return to calm.

So. Is yoga and spirituality related at all with productivity? Yes I think so. On the surface they seem unrelated because of the vastly different criteria. Productivity is measured by more material and tangible output, while spirituality is, well, it’s difficult to measure spirituality isn’t it.

I met a few spiritual people and one thing in common in them is they are fully present in the moment and very focused. I met a few productive people as well and I feel the same focus and ‘being in the moment’ quality. I know one person, Om Swami, that exemplifies both spirituality & productivity, I’m blessed to have his presence in my life. His memoir If Truth Be Told, where he shared his journey as a young student struggling to make ends meet in a foreign country, to multimillionaire, to becoming a monk & self-realized, is available internationally in ebook format from Amazon. I have a hardcopy you can borrow if you live in Indonesia – just send me a message.

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